July 21, 2011


 I am so in a blogging funk.  Life is good, generally speaking.  I really can hardly keep my feet planted, before someone or something plucks me from the ground like a weed.   And, for the most part, I am good with that. 

My long time friend and I are rekindling our relationship, which is grand!  And she is the only one IRL that knows about this blog.  Jeff is jealous and I am having a hard time with that.  It will be the first that she has learned of this also, if she is reading.  He thinks that everyone, and I mean everyone, that I talk to or come into even a brief contact with is going to replace him.

The thing is, maybe it's true??  Spending so much time with toddlers gives me mountains of time to think. And maybe I am reaching out to anyone to take the place of what is missing in my life.... But don't we all do that to a certain extent?  hmmm.  The problem, is that he doesn't reach out to anyone.  He barely has a relationship with his family, and if it weren't for me, I don't think he would even know his family on the street from a stranger!  (okay, that's a little exaggerated.)

Jeff and I are continuing to 'work on things'.  Most days are good and some days, like yesterday, are really bad.  We argue until the cow's come home (where ever they have been).  And I hate it.  And I fear that one of the girls' first memories is going to be of mommy and daddy fighting.  And I loathe that.

I wish that I felt like delving into all the stuff that we are 'working on' , but it's exhausting and reliving it would be down right torture. 

The girls are doing really good.  I have stopped giving them formula (9-24 month) in the mornings.  Maddie misses it, but Mickie is fine without.  I got criticised from my family constantly about it, so closing that chapter feels good.  Because to me, the above sentence should read:  "I have stopped giving the girls extra nutrition in the morning."  And then people would gasp. 

They are doing really well with table food too, and it amazes people that the girls like vegetables and salad and good-for-you foods.  They also like the not-so-good-for-you foods, but they are treats at our house.  Jeff's cousin tried to give the girls pop and they both spit it out!  :)  that makes me smile.    I still, about once or twice a week supplement in some pureed veggies or fruit, just to get them a boost of nutrition if I think they are lacking.  Other than that, they eat a good variety of foods.    Finally, after almost two years, I can type that.  (ahhh).

And now some pictures, with a video thrown in too:


lifeasdescribed said...

Hehee... I'm not the only one who says 'funktifide'. :)

I'm glad to hear it sounds like your having a great summer. Thoroughly enjoyed all the cutie pie pics of your girls and the vid. They are too precious and I'm glad you have more time to savor every little moment with them.

Sorry to hear about the stuff going on with you and your hubby. That's never fun. I have to say I'm dealing with a little of that too... bickering more than we ever did and I attribute ours to lack of good communication these days and not being social enough. Like yours, mine doesn't reach out to make new, lasting friendships right now either. In fact we just had a conversation in bed the other night and I told him I think we really need to make that a priority. We are social creatures - all of us, in some way or another and we NEED those good friendships, especially when family isn't there to fill that gap (our family isn't super close to us either and it's difficult at times).

Hang in there Chelle. I pray that with time and talking things out, you will begin to fight less and love more. Maybe try a date night or two with other couples?? I SOO want to start doing that again!

Have fun staying cool!

strongblonde said...

arg. so sorry that you have stuff going on with your husband :( but at least you're working on it, right? you can only do your best. just take it one day at a time.

and omg! i can't get over the girls' hair! it's so long. my kids hair is still so short. it's crazy.

i'm jealous that your kids eat a lot of food. i have one mildly adventurous eater (last night she asked for (and ate) hommus for dinner) and one little guy who would eat only fruit if i'd let him :( what's your secret?

hang in there. here if you need to chat.

Life with Gemelos said...

Love the pictures. They girls are just beautiful...I love the pic with sunglasses :)