July 21, 2011


 I am so in a blogging funk.  Life is good, generally speaking.  I really can hardly keep my feet planted, before someone or something plucks me from the ground like a weed.   And, for the most part, I am good with that. 

My long time friend and I are rekindling our relationship, which is grand!  And she is the only one IRL that knows about this blog.  Jeff is jealous and I am having a hard time with that.  It will be the first that she has learned of this also, if she is reading.  He thinks that everyone, and I mean everyone, that I talk to or come into even a brief contact with is going to replace him.

The thing is, maybe it's true??  Spending so much time with toddlers gives me mountains of time to think. And maybe I am reaching out to anyone to take the place of what is missing in my life.... But don't we all do that to a certain extent?  hmmm.  The problem, is that he doesn't reach out to anyone.  He barely has a relationship with his family, and if it weren't for me, I don't think he would even know his family on the street from a stranger!  (okay, that's a little exaggerated.)

Jeff and I are continuing to 'work on things'.  Most days are good and some days, like yesterday, are really bad.  We argue until the cow's come home (where ever they have been).  And I hate it.  And I fear that one of the girls' first memories is going to be of mommy and daddy fighting.  And I loathe that.

I wish that I felt like delving into all the stuff that we are 'working on' , but it's exhausting and reliving it would be down right torture. 

The girls are doing really good.  I have stopped giving them formula (9-24 month) in the mornings.  Maddie misses it, but Mickie is fine without.  I got criticised from my family constantly about it, so closing that chapter feels good.  Because to me, the above sentence should read:  "I have stopped giving the girls extra nutrition in the morning."  And then people would gasp. 

They are doing really well with table food too, and it amazes people that the girls like vegetables and salad and good-for-you foods.  They also like the not-so-good-for-you foods, but they are treats at our house.  Jeff's cousin tried to give the girls pop and they both spit it out!  :)  that makes me smile.    I still, about once or twice a week supplement in some pureed veggies or fruit, just to get them a boost of nutrition if I think they are lacking.  Other than that, they eat a good variety of foods.    Finally, after almost two years, I can type that.  (ahhh).

And now some pictures, with a video thrown in too: