February 18, 2011

No Fitting Title

So, thanks for listening to me bitch a little bit on the last post!  I am having a hard time deciding on my career direction.   I have a couple of choices (in letter format-for a change of pace!)

A.  Hold out as long as possible working with my dad as we shut down the business.  I am still getting a paycheck as we liquidate things.  I am still working on closing the books and get to bring the girls to work with me.  This process could take a couple of months still.
A1.  When we get all the business stuff wrapped up, I could file for unemployment and 'be okay' for a while and stay at home with the girls.
B.  Actively pursue a job and escape the drama that goes along with option A and A1 and take the girls to a babysitter or get a nanny. 

I think option A is what I am leaning toward, it just all that drama that accompanies it.  I mean, I feel like I am up to my ears with drama.  And while I get to have the girls with me, and that is the most important thing, it is so hard to deal with.

Just this morning, mom tells me that I need to get the girls a hair cut.  I said, why?  She said, it's all straggly.  Um-excuse me!?  My girls hair has NEVER been straggly. 

I think it wouldn't be so bad if there wasn't a hatchet with the handle sticking out.  (old garth brooks anyone?)  It all goes back to the way they treat me and my sister differently.  My sister has always had a silver spoon sticking out of her mouth and mom reloads the spoon and sticks it back in, even to this day.  I, on the other hand, have worked for everything I've got. 

It's like this: they tell me that I need to buy the girls new shoes.  My sister, when the boys were young, would drop them off at mom's with no shoes, no jacket, not even out of their pj's yet.  My mom would go and buy the stuff for her and send it home with the boys. 

This is a glimpse of my life (in a nutchell!) but almost every situation follows suit.  Just like the computer I had mentioned a couple of posts earlier.  I asked dad how much he wanted for my work computer and he told me $300-$400 dollars.  The VERY NEXT DAY, he gave my sister a printer for free.  I bought a new dell for $446, including tax and delivery.  Classic. 

Last year: Giggles

February 17, 2011


Be fore-warned that this post is a quick bitch fest. 

I am so damn tired of my MIL and my parents telling me how to parent my children!  I mean, get a f***ing clue will you!!!  They are always telling me something that I 'should' be doing.  Something that I should be buying (you know, cause I am made of money).  Something that I am doing wrong.  Pisses me off. 

I stopped taking their advice long ago.  But it still annoys me.  I wish I didn't have to hear it at all!  It's always:

*the girls need new shoes.
*they don't need a jacket to go outside! it's not that cold.  Your being over protective
*oh-that schedule isn't going to work.
*they are too young to not nap all day (really?  DUH.)
*you need to get them another bean bag
*you need to buy another movie.  they don't want to watch baby signing anymore. (no-it's cause YOU don't want to watch baby signing... yet get all happy when they sign.  Hypocrites)
*you need get the blender out and feed them anything that you eat.
*you need to stop giving them a bottle.
*they didn't want to eat, so I gave them cheese
*they don't want to take a nap right now (...but it's okay to send them home with you all cranky because I am too selfish and want baby time to put them down for a nap)
*on and on and ON!

I mean, it's all the damn time!  I have told them, time and time again, that I (ME!) am the mom.  I make the decisions.  I chose what I think is best.  UGH.  I am so f***ing irritated.

February 16, 2011

Bath Time

Our bath time tea parties have reached a whole new level.  To me, this looks like it has child social services written all over it!  I was going to title this post: "puff, puff, give!"  But decided against it.  :)  They are actually sipping some cold water out of their tea pot.. although it looks kinda like a bong.

Good times, though, in the bath.  See for yourself!  (daddy is encouraging such fun!)

This video was after washing, playing, brushing teeth, and splashing.  They hate getting out of the tub.  I think they would spend hours in there if I let them! 

February 15, 2011

My Valentine

February 14, 2011

A lunar halo, Maddie walks, and Mickie's in control

So, Jeff and I are lucky enough to have a hot tub (and the money, for now, to run it when it's sub-zero temps outside).  Last night, as we were getting in, we looked up and saw this:

OK, yeah, this wasn't taken with my camera!  I don't have those kind of skills, BUT, this is exactly what it looked like.  Beautiful.  We sat and enjoyed.  I googled it today to find out that it means menacing weather is coming... :(

Alas, Maddie has perfected her walking skills! 

And I just can't imagine how you could make that into a bad thing... Most everyone that I associate myself with says, "oh, just wait till they walk-your in trouble!"  Well, I think it's great!  I don't have to carry them everywhere!  :) 

And finally, Mickie trying to turn on Elmo:

It's funny because both of them point the controllers at the TV or stereo and sometimes hit the right button! 

February 10, 2011

So a couple of random thoughts, in no particular order.  Bulleted, of course.

  • I am not having any luck finding a job.  Well, actually, I got a job.  A really, really great job.  One that doesn't get plopped into your lap everyday.  High salary, profit sharing, 3 weeks vacation, five minute commute, etc.  BUT (isn't there always a but?), one of their major clients cancelled an order so they don't have the budget to hire me. It's not a total loss, but I can't rely on it coming through.
  • I am having a really hard time dealing with my mom/family (Strong blonde, Amanda - I know you can relate).  It is such a long story, and I want to share it, but don't have the energy to type it out.  It feels like I am reliving it.  I am SO close to cutting all ties with my mom and, consequently, my dad.
  • I have ordered a new computer so that I can blog at home! and oh, yeah-look for a job too! I wanted to buy this one (my work computer) but my dad asked me for 400 dollars for it.  UM, I got a new one for 450 (including tax and delivery).  (this is a small piece of the very huge drama pie)  Still, I am so excited for my new computer!
  • (I am in parenthesis heaven)
Last Year: Just Plain Cute!

February 4, 2011

Snow Day

 This is what my snow day brought!  Actually, I stayed home because Maddie wasn't feeling good (I think she got dehydrated) and lets face it: my job is not exactly go-go-go.  SO, there you have it.  However, it did snow yesterday afternoon.  We were supposed to get about an inch, but got about 7 inches!   The girls loved it... Well, Mickie loved it.  Maddie-not so much.

I am sorry I haven't commented on all of my friends blogs.  I am grateful for the support and the comments during this transition with my job.  I will try to be more on the ball next week!  (Just know that I am reading-even though I may not have commented.. yet)