July 28, 2010

Having it all-Is it a myth?

Why can't I have it all? Do you know anyone that does have it all? My idea of having it all includes these things:

  • a wonderful marriage
  • two wonderful baby girls (check)
  • good health (check)
  • dependable cars (check)
  • a job (check)
  • money enough to not struggle (check)
  • two great dogs (check)
  • a wonderful house (check)

You see, it took so long to get the second thing on my list that the first thing is no longer "checked". Why can't I have it all? Seriously, am I asking too much? Can all of those things not be achieved all at once? Does something have to give? Is my plate too full?

Apparently so.

July 22, 2010

Well, it seems as if Mickie has really turned the corner in the last couple of weeks. I am going to try solid food again next week. She is crawling like a champ and her stomach doesn't feel like a balloon about ready to pop. Maddie is starting to crawl, but mostly in reverse. Her stomach still feels like a balloon, but not as bad.. Even though I feel like she still may have problems, I am going to try solid food with her next week too. We have actually enjoyed feeding time the last week or so. For the first time in 9 months. It's been wonderful! (It is just my luck, btw, that we finally get the girls tested and diagnosed and they grew/are growing out of it.)

Lemme share with you a story: The night before last, I took Maddie in the nursery to change her diaper and didn't put up the doggie gate (it's a baby gate, but for so long we used it for doggies-not babies!). I went back in the play room and Mickie was gone! I freaked out, obviously, and immediately checked the bottom of the stairs. She wasn't there, thank goodness! I found her in our room headed straight for the closet! That girl loves shoes!!! (just like her momma)

Then, last night, she proceeded to pull the jumper gym
on top of her and Maddie! Maddie didn't even cry but I think Mickie freaked herself out by how strong she is! :)

In other words, keeping up with Mickie is VERY challenging so far... I am afraid of when Maddie gets to going full speed!!

July 19, 2010

Some Girls!

So sleepy after a bath... Daddy did my hair!

Doesn't hardly look comfortable!

So cute. So ornery. So much like her daddy.

After a bath-Daddy did her hair too!

Here are the girl's on the 5th of July-getting ready to go to a pool party.

Here are the girls in their "big girl pj's."

July 14, 2010

Ma Peeps!

I know I am a terrible commenter/blogger as of late. ... Okay, it's been a while since I have been worth a crap!

I want to give you my sincerest thanks for reading and commenting on my blog.

Amanda, I appreciate your support. It did make me feel a lot better knowing that you had gone through a scope and it wasn't a big deal. Thank you.

Hollie, I SWEAR I met a lady that could have been you. She would have had no idea why I was hugging her!! I will have to tell you the whole story, but to make it short-this woman is everything I pictured in my head that you are!! haha! Thank you.

My bumpy journey (L), I tried to do the shakey dance with solid food, and I think you are right-it just wasn't the same!! :) I love that we are so alike! Thank you.

PJ, I hope everything that I am going through might help you in some small way! I also appreciate your support amidst giving birth to your own twins!!! Thank you.

Teresa, thank you for just being here. It is so comforting to know that you are here if I need you. I hope that I did the same for you. Thank you.

What IF, your comments and information have been fabulous. I appreciate you taking the time out of your busy triplet schedule to help me!! Thank you.

Kahla, I always appreciate your positiveness. You have a certain glow aboutcha. Thank you.

Wise Guy, WHERE ARE U, my friend? (I'm one to talk huh?!) I am sorry I moved so suddenly! Where is your bloggie? I have missed you!

Lost in Space, I know you are out there, and I appreciate your support. I hope you are doing good.

If I missed you-TELL ME! I love all that pass over this ole blog! :)

July 13, 2010

Twilight Zone

That's where I am.

First of all-the girls tests all came back fine. They don't even have acid reflux enough to be on medications for it. This is really great. (And at the same time-incredibly frustrating.. Not that I want anything wrong with them, but all the screaming and intolerance to solid food is evidently in my head.) I am SO happy that they don't have some rare disease and that they are over all healthy. That is the most important thing to me.

Unfortunately, for me, I am imagining all the trouble that we have feeding them every. single. feeding. I am imagining the fact that if they have anything other than formula they will kick their legs, arch their back, and scream.

Alas, there is an explanation: They were premature and their digestive systems, although working, are not as developed and work "slower." The food that they eat, sits in their stomachs and takes a long time to digest. There are medicines that speed this process up, but we are not choosing to go down that road because of severe and permanent side effects that may occur. We are hoping, instead, that as they begin to crawl and move around they will outgrow this and their digestive systems will speed up and move "faster."

As a matter of fact, Mickie is crawling pretty good and hasn't had trouble in a week or so. I am hoping Maddie will crawl soon too (she is trying).

The doctor said not to get too concerned if they won't take solid foods until they are a year old. At that point if we are still having trouble, then we are to call him. (he is a great doctor btw). In the mean time, we just give them formula and a multivitamin. We are taking them off the prevacid and zantac.

So, if what you read between all these lines it should say: "GRIT TEETH. (check). BARE IT. (working on it).


Now, as for my hubby and I. We are not filling out divorce papers (yet!). I appreciate all of your comments to let us know that we aren't the only ones going through this. Thank you. We are also seeing counselor to talk about some important issues. DH and I have been together for 12 years and both of us know what it takes to make it work. We'll get through.


Work is pretty good. It is hard to let go of some things that I am used to controlling. For example, the girls are gaining weight and doing really good. (what you don't see is the man and wife behind the scenes force feeding them). Now, give the girls to a grandmother who "just can't force feed them" and we have a problem. One eats good, the other doesn't so the one that ate good takes a good nap and the other one is hungry and BLAM! the schedule is off. Or I get them to work and one is sleeping and the other one wakes up and BLAM! the schedule is off. But these are the kinks that we are going to have to work out.

Overall, I am just hanging in there, although I DO feel like I am in the twilight zone most of the time.

PS-Did I tell you that I would have more time to blog because I am "working?" haha!