December 21, 2009


The girls have been sleeping through the night for the last week now! There was one day last week that they woke up every 5 hours (which is still not a big deal at all because that is only one midnight feeding). Other than that night, they sleep 8-9 hours at night!

Like I said in a previous post, I take them with me in their bouncers from room to room all day long. They nap through out the day, but don't fall into a deep sleep. After feedings we "play" and do some tummy time. The eat every 4 hours during the day. By night time, they are tired enough that they sleep all night long. The only thing I try to make sure of is that the last feeding of the day lands around 7 or 8 o'clock at night and then they sleep till 4 or 5 in the morning. I can't believe what great babies I have. They are so great!

December 16, 2009

December 14, 2009

Rollin, Rollin, Rollin!

It is amazing to me how everything works out. (Long pause before the next sentence...Mackenzie was not happy in her room. She is happy now. With me, down stairs, sleeping. Madison is still upstairs sleeping.) (Another long mother called.)

45 minutes later:

...It is amazing to me how everything works out. The first couple of months with the girls were really rough. It was a hard transition, but Jeff and I are finding our grove. I actually played in the symphony this weekend, something I thought wouldn't happen until next year when the girls were a bit older. I am going Chris.tmas shopping this week and taking the girls with me. We went to see my nieces dance recital and took the girls (they were angels).

What am I getting at? We still have a life! With twin girls. We still have a life. Something that almost everyone told me would be over. "You will never have time to yourself again... not until they are 18" "You can't be intimate with your husband anymore. Not with two babies!" "You can't play in the symphony! Who will take care of the girls??"

I love proving people wrong. Guess what? I DO have time to myself sometimes. I AM intimate with my hubby. And I DID play in the symphony.

Enough about me, though. The girls are thriving, as they say. We had a bit of a problem with gas. I mean, they wake up screaming their little heads off after only a half hour of sleep because they have terrible gas. (can you imagine having gas so bad that you cry and scream? Poor babies) The drops? They take them like candy. They got a prescription for zantac that seems to help and I still give them acidophilus to keep them "moving". So we are working through the gas situation. Literally. :)

We have a great routine going, the girls and I. During the day, they go with me in their bouncers (which, by the way, we cannot live without) where ever I go. If I am downstairs, they are downstairs. If I am cleaning, they go room to room with me. I feed them every 4 hours, hold one of them for a while, hold the other for while and then they go in their bouncers, stare and ooh and ahh at the wonderful hanging toys and wave their arms around. Then when they start to get fussy, I give them their sucky and they sleep a bit. They don't fall into a deep sleep because I won't let them. They take siestas all day long. THEN, at night, I feed them and put them to bed and they will go 5-6 hours between feedings and they are tired enough that I don't have to fight (much) to get them to go back to sleep at 2 in the morning.

Madison is on the left and Mackenzie on the right. You will notice that they love the "hospital issue" suckies. I can't get them to take a nuk for the life of me. My friend, who also had a preemie baby, said her daughter (now 2) would never take anything but the hospital issue suckies either. So, she gave me a bunch of them recently in all different colors. They are called gumdrop pacifiers, FYI.

December 4, 2009


I think I have heard every home remedy that ever existed. Some of them-Great ideas! And some of them-UM, I don't think so!

To cure hiccups: Sugar water
This is a very popular remedy recommended to me by several people. I have never tried it because the doctor said that it is the act of sucking that relieves hiccups. Give more milk or use a pacifier.

To cure constipation: Sugar water
Is this all they had back in the day? Unfortunately doctor said water could throw off the babies electrolytes. They would get full from the water and not eat their formula. That would be bad. Instead, give baby acidophilus probiotic.

To cure colic: Whiskey water
I am sure this would knock them out and make them sleep (hence stop crying). Even the 5 drops of whiskey to 4 oz of water, which is what was recommended leaves me with a not-so-good feeling. Plus, water is no good given the above explanation.
Instead, .... Just try to work through it. Fortunately, my babies don't have colic.

To cure pains of teething: A drop of whiskey on your finger rubbed onto the gums
I am not there yet, but I think anbesol might work. I really don't know if I am comfortable giving my babies whiskey... Even though these remedies were used on me!

November 30, 2009


My life evolves everyday. I can say (today anyway) that there is no where else I would rather be than here at home taking care of my girls. As challenging as it is, I can't have anyone else taking over my job as mommy.
Jeff and I are very calculated, mathematical, systematic people and have had a hard time letting two un-calculated, un-mathematical, un-systematic babies rule our lives! It has been a hell of a transition for me and I am still transitioning. Hence, the evolution.
Every day, I learn something new. A new "trick" for my "bag of tricks." For instance, we have found that the babies do really well if I am the primary "food giver." (Forgive my over use of quotes) There must be different techniques from person to person... or they must realize that I am mommy and they trust me (that I will give them food)... or whatever reason. If I feed them all the time, (which consists of them sitting in their high chairs and me holding both bottles and when I burp one the other gets a suckie), then they fall asleep faster and they are more content. This means that I don't even have Jeff to help me. It means that I don't get a break...ever. BUT, I am okay with that because the babies are what matter right now.

Another thing that has helped tremendously with the over all contentment of the babies is switching to a soy formula. They were on a preemie formula that had 2 extra calories per cc. Well, it was so rich for them that they would only sleep for about 30 minutes before waking up SCREAMING with gas pains. It was awful. I took them to the doctor and the doctor said that the girls were "thriving" and didn't need to be on the preemie formula anymore. I wanted to switch to a soy based formula anyway, so I was happy that it's what the doctor recommended.
The holiday was hard. Everyone in my family was sick and Jeff and I were made to feel like assholes because we wouldn't let anyone hold the babies at Thanksgiving. YET, they are all on antibiotics and the girls are (knock on wood) not showing signs of being sick. We are the bastards though that are keeping the babies from everyone... Whatever. My family can kiss my ass. The bad thing is that it stressed Jeff and I out SO MUCH that the babies didn't sleep hardly at all the night before Thanksgiving.
On a brighter note, the girls are great. Like I said earlier, even as challenging as it is at times, there is nowhere else I would rather be. I love them more than life itself.
(Us with my 90 year old grandfather. These are his 11th and 12th great grandchildren)
(How I feed the girls... Except that they are big enough now that I put them in their high chair)

November 10, 2009

A Routine

Well, today is a better start than yesterday. I never thought that it would be so hard to take care of a baby. I knew it would be challenging. I knew there would be difficult times and I knew that I would really have to put my mind to it. I did not know that it would be day in and day out the most difficult thing I have ever done. Now, multiply by two.

I love the babies more than I can even say, but I am doubting my mothering skills. Everyone says that I am doing a good job, but I honestly don't think so. It is so hard to put into words what I am thinking... For the most part, I think "yeah, I can do this. Feed the babies, do some laundry, clean the house a bit. I CAN DO THIS." But then, when it takes over an hour to feed one of them because she threw up (not spit up... threw up her entire meal and I have to start over), or when both of them are screaming at the same time, or when one of them is 'stopped up' and has a tummy ache. These are the times that I want to run away screaming. These are the times that I want to go back to work and pay a babysitter to watch them.

The babies were in the NICU for 8 days. In that 8 days, the wonderful nurses got them on a schedule. A routine. They fed them every three hours. So, when we brought the babies home, it wasn't as big of a challenge as it could have been because they were already on a schedule. We kept the schedule and for the first week, I thought "this is not so bad. Eat, sleep, change diaper. Repeat." But then somewhere we started to go a little longer. We started to feed every 3 and a half or 4 hours and they babies are eating a little more. Well, this seems to be a very slippery surface. Now, we have all sorts of variables that are being thrown in the mix and in one swift motion the whole schedule can be thrown off. For example, one of them decides that 4 hours is too long to wait and starts screaming at 3 hours. The other one is dead asleep. I have to decide: Do I TRY to comfort the early waker and do nothing but rock and hold and put the pacifier back in her mouth every two seconds because she spits it out and starts crying and make her wait until the 4 hour mark. OR do I feed her and let the other one sleep. Get her comforted and put her back to bed and then feed the next one and then WHAM! the feeding schedule is now an hour off from baby to baby and suddenly, I have a half hour to an hour in between feeding either one baby or the other.

Anyway, that is one of the dilemmas that I am dealing with on a daily basis. It is almost essential that I have someone here helping me feed. So this morning, as I said, has been better. Hubby and I got up, got showered, ate, and fed the babies before he needed to be at work at 7. I guess that is pretty good. When I type it out, it sounds like we are kicking ass. My mom will be here for the next feeding. So, hopefully it will be a better day.

November 9, 2009

My First Post

In truth, I had hundreds of posts on a couple of blogs that I just deleted. I am starting a new chapter in my life that includes being a stay at home mommy to twin girls. The blogs I once kept contain a very sad and difficult time in my life and I am choosing to close that chapter (permanently) and move on.

So, cheers *clink* to a new chapter and a fresh start!

I will start by saying that this post is going to be very short. I have to go fix dinner and the girls are starting to wake up, so I had better get a move on. I hope that tomorrow (or sometime soon), I will feel like posting more.

November 1, 2009

A Work In Progress